I’m writing a paper about my near-death experience, which is what has underpinned a lot of my aesthetic over these last years. This video illustrates how I perceived my body – as a pulsing light. The light intensity grew with each inhale, and diminished with each exhale. Overall, the amplitude envelope was decreasing. I knew that at the moment it was extinguished, I would begin resting. In another dimension. It seems it wasn’t the time.